A Fear Within

                                                            

After talking to you last night ,i really don't know whats going in my heart & mind. Seems as if they are arguing on something. The fear of you leaving me is sinking in. I'm thinking of dropping my idea of going to Chennai because I feel that you won't be there with me when I come back . My feeling ain't going to change for you. This is an extract on how & what I feel right now.Please don't let this happen..

Telling me to go

But hands beg me to stay

And I too want to stay

Your lips say that you love

Your eyes say that you hate

There's truth in your lies

Doubt on your face

What we built you are laying it to decay

This truth in your lies

Doubt on your face

All I've got what you didn't take

See I'm not the one

The one to leave this

In pieces

And you

You are the one leaving me

Broken in pieces

Alone with all your secrets

And regrets

You promised me the sky

Then tossed me like a stone

You wrapped me in your arms

And now showing me way to the door

See I'm not the one

The one to leave this

In pieces

I ain't regret the times we shared

But it seems that you do..

I Miss You..more than words can say..!!

My heart aches within from missing you, Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin, To look into your eyes and see deep within, Just one warm embrace, Just to look upon your face, Just one little touch, From the one I love so much, If I could gaze upon your smile, For just a little while, To know that you miss me too, As I'm thinking of you, To hear the sound of you breathe, Knowing you'll never leave, To see you walk up to me, Then embrace you tenderly, To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling, And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling, I sit here alone in my room tonight, And pray that somehow everything turns out right, I've never been one to do more taking than giving,  I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought, And in lifetime, who would have thought, That I have found someone who was just meant for me, I can't explain the magic or why this should be, But there is one thing that I know for certain, That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain, For I've seen an angel and I want you to know, If it's my choice to make, I'll never let you go, Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme, To think you may be mine in a matter of time, And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart, My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

The Untitled

      

I sit back with the books in my bag..

They're like some fuckin drugs that i don't wanna conceal

Everyone tells me to smoke'em up in one go

And they want me to get addicted to these mufuckin bunch of notes

I know I can't be wat everyone's tryin to see

I know I can't be the one who fucks his ass up and 

Does something for others damn sake

Nobody has the decency to ask what i feel

And i feel so mean sometimes when people tease me to be.

All this tension results in my mind's suspension

This stress is now tring to eat over my flesh

I can't recite these stingy notes 

I can only rhyme my held up high music notations

I hate to be bothered 

Because since birth I've been cursed with this curse 

To just curse this berserk

I don't owe anything to them

I say what I feel like

I dun mean to be me

But that's all I can b 

It's just being me

And I am, whatever you say I am

If I wasn't, then why would I say I am ?

Sometimes I feel so dejected then rejected

There's a guy I want to cock him up 

My patience is decieving and If he offended me

I'm liftin him 10 feet...in the air

I don't care whomever he calls to beat me

Again If his mouth opens for my girl

I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy him

I'll make him resemble a freakin' retard

Basically,I wish that he would just die or get fired

I'm tired of arguin'..

I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me

I hate to be bothered

With all of this nonsense and it's constant

I'm so sick and tired of bein admired

The why, the who what when, the where, and the how

are making me click blow...

They motherfuckin questions for which i've no sentences

Are drivin me crazy

I can't take it

I'm racin, I'm pacin, I stand and I sit

And I'm thankful to everyone who has been with me..

And I am, whatever you say I am

If I wasn't, then why would I say I am ?

Fears That Creep In...

My fears surround me like a giant concrete traffic jam

They cave in on me, press me, smudge me on the floor

Each trying harder and harder to squash, and shatter me

Into tiny grey pieces of a child’s lost puzzle,

They scream at my face like overgrown crude drivers....

They want to consume me for I stand on their way

Smash me, Break me,

Bleed me,

Erase me from this street

For they know the truth that drives them more insane

With more power they regroup and cloaked by the darkness

of my gruesome loneliness attack

But in their brutal anxious greed to destroy

They forget the simple irony of the hierarchy

That even though they may rule over me

In the end I’m still the my master, my ruler....

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An Old Extract

Ordinary no, really don't think so

Not a love this true

Common destiny

We were meant to be

Me and you

Like a perfect scene from a movie screen

We're a dream come true

Suited perfectly for eternity

Me and you

Every day, I need you even more

And the night time too

There's no way

I could ever let you go

Even if I wanted to

Every day I live

Try my best to give

All I have to you

Thank the stars above

That we share this love Me and you

Every day, I need you even more

And the night time too

There's no way

I could ever let you go

Even if I wanted to

Ordinary no, I really don't think so

Just a precious few

Ever make it last

Get as lucky as

Me and you

The Current Feeling

In the moonlight, Your face it glows

Like a thousand diamonds, I suppose

And your hair flows like , The ocean breeze

Not a million fights ,Could make me hate you

You're invincible

Yeah, It's true

It's in your eyes, Where I find peace

Let's light up the town, scream out loud!

I can see in your eyes ,I'm ready to break

Don't look away...

So here we are now ,in a place where

The sun s blended, With the ocean thin.

So thin, we stand ,Across from each other

Together we'll wonder, If we will last these days

If I asked you to stay, Would you tell me

You would be mine?

And time ,Is all you ask for

It transforms everyone

And I hope it's not you

Because I ain't going to change...